Numb

I am back....but i don't know what to say about this trip. On one hand there's happiness about the fact that everything is proceeding so well on the wedding front and on the other hand is my grandma's condition that isn't very good, to say the least. She's bed ridden and can't do anything on her own, so much so that she cannot even talk to express herself. Curious to know what exactly has happened to her, i asked mamu who is a doctor and is taking care of her about it. He asked me to read on Dementia, yes i came to know that this condition is called Dementia and my granny is in the last stage of it. And the worst part is that there's no turning back....there's no cure for Dementia in the medical world. 

The only thing that i can be remotely glad about is the decision that i took. Even though it was an impulsive one, i did the right thing by going there. We really don't know how long is she going to be there....she couldn't even recognize me when i touched her feet to take her blessings. I felt like crying when i saw her in such a state....someone who used to be so active just doesn't deserve to suffer so much. I couldn't help but question god, why did you do this to her? Does she deserve to be in this state despite being such a devout woman? Questions are many and answers are none....the only thing that we can do is to pray to god that he reduces her pain and suffering. Please god don't increase her sufferings any further.