I don't know where life's taking me....At first i felt this was just a phase which will pass sooner or later, but this feeling just refuses to leave me! I am feeling very restless these days, don't know what am i doing, where am i headed? It's strange that i am getting this feeling at a stage when things are supposedly going well, work wise i have just been moved into a new profile, in terms of personal life i am months away from my wedding, a day which i have waited for ever since i got into this relationship.
Then why is it that i am not happy? What is it that's missing in my life? I don't know, i have trying to find an answer to these questions and all i can think of is taking a break! Yes i often feel like leaving everything and going to an unknown place where nobody knows me and start afresh. I have tried discussing this with my mom, she feels i am just anxious coz i am going to get married soon.....but shouldn't i be excited rather than being anxious!? I discussed this with my guy and he feels that i am stuck in a rut and i need a change in life.
I want a change in life, but i don't know what exactly do i want to change in my life! Sounds strange and confusing well that's what i am at the moment, confused. All i can think of right now is that, i want to quit this job, banking was never meant for me anyways! Is this the classic case of somebody stuck in the wrong profession? Well could be....But i think i need to hang in here for a while, at least till i get married, i need this job if not for what i am doing, but for the money that i get each month.
P.S. I can totally understand if this post doesn't make any sense to you. But i had to get this out of my system coz it's been plaguing me from quite sometime!
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