Something Called Love

Caution: Long post ahead!! So please don't read it if you don't have the time.

Here comes yet another Monday morning....and everybody around me knows how much i loathe Mondays!! No, no i am not here to write another hate post on Mondays. I am here to write about something that's ever so close to my heart, rather its to do with my heart. Don't worry my heart's totally fine. Its to do with the emotion which relates to heart, its about love!!

Yes, this is the first time that i want to bare my heart out about what i feel about being in love....Right from class IV when i had my first crush, i felt the first flush of love even though it was a mere infatuation then! :) Since then I had my share of crushes and it felt good each time i felt butterflies in my stomach. It made me smile, it made me happy & eventually most of my crushes became good friends of mine!

But the first time i felt love for real was way back in school when i was 14. I remember joining DAV Public School in Bhubaneswar, i remember being nervous not bcoz i was scared but more so coz this was yet another new school for me and i had to make new friends all over again!! (all thanks to dad's transferable job) And somewhere there was this uneasiness in my heart....I don't know if i had sensed it already.

There was this guy who was extremely shy of girls, to the extent that he wouldn't even cross paths with them. :) I liked him not only bcoz he was cute but also bcoz he had the cutest smile i had ever seen! He was brilliant in Biology, a subject i couldn't quite understand. He had an excellent memory and i still remember the day when he had recited "Rime of the Ancient Mariner" a poem by Samuel Taylor Coleridge. It was a 3 pager and he had recited the whole poem in one go. I mean that was seriously impressive!!

He used to stay in the same colony as mine coz his dad worked in the same organization as my dad. I wished if i could talk to him....but he wouldn't coz he was so so shy! And i wouldn't too coz i was never the kinda girl who would make the first move. But there was this inevitable attraction that we felt towards each other and this lead us to each other. We started talking, and before i knew, he had proposed and i obviously said a "Yes"! :)

This was not to last for too long....soon my dad got transferred and i had to move out with my family. Like any other couple we parted saying that we will keep in touch and that we will make it last. But no sooner had i left, i could see the cracks and like any other teenage romance our's came to an end!! It was painful to say the least, and i can't say how much i must have cried then. But i had to be strong and i vowed never to fall in love again!! I know i was so naive and vain then.

One fine day i got a call from a friend who i never thought would call me, coz we were never really best friends! She called me up at 6 in the morning and as soon as my mom handed over the phone to me, i realised that it was not her, it was him! It was he who had made her call me up. And i could sense that something was not quite right about the way things were going.

And within the next few days he had proposed, i knew that this time if i said a yes there would be no turning back. And i said this to him, i know it sounds silly now, but i had told him that if this time anything goes wrong then i will be done for good. Ever since then i have never got a chance to get over him....coz like they say, the rest is history and there's been no turning back!

He's never given me a chance to complain....Even today, despite being continents apart, he still professes his love for me the way he used to years ago. There's not a single call which ends without he saying the 3 magical words "I Love You". And believe me it still sounds as magical as it used to 8 and a half years ago!!

We will be completing 9 yrs in June....I know i always keep saying this, but today i want to say it here, "I just can't get enough of you and i am so glad that i said a yes every time you came back to me, I Love You Baby and you are and will always be the best thing that ever happened to me!!"